Num, num, num, num

After another weekend of binging due to BBQs, parties and after-race celebrations full of beer and cheese balls (yeah, you read that right), I decided: THIS HAS TO STOP.

So on Monday I headed down to GNC and began my new food plan. I picked up some Hydroxycut Max and was able to buy lean protein meal replacement shake mix for half off. So that's what I'm doing now. Keeping up my gym routine, replacing breakfast and lunch with the shake and taking those pills.

Back down to 142.0! I'll be at 139 in no time. That's the number I'm focusing on now, just so I can see the 130s. I know it'll be a great feeling.

Hot BF is not thrilled about the low amount of calories in the shakes. Says it will put my body in starvation mode. So I'm eating fruit and veggies all day to try and prevent that. Has anyone ever eaten sun dried tomatoes as a snack? Holy hell, it's better than potato chips, and I loves me some potato chips.

OK, For Realz

Alright so I'm back on track with my eating. I'm back to keeping a diet log and having Hot BF looking it over and making changes. I'm back at the gym six days a week. And I'm back down to 143.2.

Current Goal: 135 by my birthday (May 13).

So far this week:
Monday: Ran 3.1 miles
Tuesday: Strength trained my ass off for an hour. Included manging to six reps of one-arm rows at 40lbs. That's the first time I've been able to hit that weight.
Wednesday: Ran 4 miles

Plans:
Thursday: Strength train like a monster again.
Friday: Run 3.1
Saturday: 5K race in the mud (while wearing a costume... don't ask.)
Sunday: Gymnastics seminar

135 135 135 135....

Just keep picturing it.

I was right...

145 again. Oy.

I type this as I'm drinking a cafe latte... Oy.

Worked my ass off yesterday and will run another 4 miles today. ( Maybe more if it stops raining). But the BF is making steak for dinner and I hate saying "no" when he puts so much work into something.

When I first started the dieting and exercising it was so damn easy to lose weight. It was like as soon as I stopped eating pizza and just replaced it, I lost like 30 lbs. Now despite the fact that my diet has been completely changed and that I'm working out 6 days a week, I'm still on a plateau.

I hate that once you become "average" that the body makes you work 1,000 times more to become "thin."

I want this so bad, so why is it so hard to say "no?"

Meeting New Goals, Loosing Sight of Others

First of all... thanks to all of you who wished me good luck on the race! My goal was to finish the race in under 2 hours and I came in at 1:50 something. So whoo hoo! I admit I did walk for about a minute total, but it felt worse to walk so it encouraged me to get back into the jog.

Well of course I was sore for days afterward, and took two days off from the gym, and ate everything in sight... I didn't seem to gain any weight though, so that was encouraging.

Took me awhile to get my pace back up at the gym and now I'm back to running 4 miles every other day and strength training for about an hour, on the alternate days. However, my appetite has been on overload.

I don't know if it's been because I got addicted to eating the carbs (which you should do before a long race like that) or if it's my period. Either way, my diet has sucked this week and I'm terrified of getting on the scale.

I start training with a new trainer on Saturday and she says she plans on kicking my ass. So hopefully that will kick everything back into gear! I'm really hoping to become strong and thin enough to start doing some gymnastic stuff with Hot BF. It's a big goal of ours.

Whoo Hoo! Two Down!

Despite all my bad eating last weekend I weighed in at 142.2 yesterday! Weeeeeee!

However, despite my attempts to avoid food completely yesterday, my friend whom I haven't seen in forever took me to a southern comfort food place yesterday for dinner and they are my serious weakness. I'm not sure what I am today, but I'll be heading to the gym later for a serious workout.

Only a few more days to my big 10 mile race! Aggggh! I'm so nervous!